Meditation. It’s not exactly what is happening, but I'm making progress.
I really do want to clear my mind and be still. It's so hard!! The struggle is real people!
The closest I get to meditating is sitting and staring at the ocean. It's a very calming, happy, re-centering place for me. I love the sound, the smell, and the very sight of it. I never get sick of that view! But it doesn't clear my head. It does something else. It makes me feel overwhelmingly grateful. It makes me think how insanely lucky I am to have THIS place. Isn’t that at least a derivative of meditation? In addition to feeling grateful, it makes me feel alone and small compared to the gigantic world around us. As I was thinking about that, I was reminded of an article that I once read on the blog called "The Elephant Journal" called “The Truth About ‘True Love’”. It said "The fear of loneliness prevents us from experiencing real intimacy. True love lies beyond that fear”. It then goes on to quote what the comedian Louis CK referred to as having to face the “forever empty . . .” and that "It requires that we lay down the ego’s defenses and be naked and vulnerable . . .”. I just love how purely this is stated. And you know what? Sometimes being naked and vulnerable to ourselves, is the biggest challenge of all. So I knew I needed to be alone and work through some stuff. And I did this today. I gazed out at the beautiful ocean that ebbs and flows, right outside of my front door. I was all alone. And yet, it was exactly where I needed to be. And the next thing I knew I had been unwittingly and silently repeating the mantra: Clarity, Focus, Perspective.
Now go be you...be amazing!